Desperately in need of
cash, I drove hurriedly to the nearest ATM machine and I hit the keypads with
desperation as if to make the machine work faster. The exact sum I needed was
the exact sum left in the account. So I clicked on it anyway. And alas! A
message popped up on the screen…It appeared like a mixture of Greek and
Spanish. The New bank Policy required a minimum account balance of 2000 naira
so whatever sum I wanted to withdraw had to be short of 2000…. I wished I could
communicate with the machine and tell it that I wanted all my money and I
didn’t mind closing my account! After all, it was my money! My hard earned
money! How can this people just initiate
Policies just like that! For goodness sake, the last time I checked, one could
have a zero naira minimum balance! Unfortunately, it was a weekend and there
was no bank official to yell at so I left… angry and bitter …. It was much
later I understood the essence of the minimum balance: it was necessary to keep
an account alive even when dormant…
Have you ever lost a loved
one? Have you been through a nasty break up? Have you experienced the pain of
loss in any form? Have you been hurt? Have you been in pain? How did you
survive it? My answer? My minimum balance! My Deposit! My deposit kept me alive
when I was dormant…
I have indeed been through
pain not once not twice and sometimes when I’m in d deep of pain, rejection or
loss, I listen to all sorts of lines and phrases but I cannot hear, I feel the
warmth of a hug or a warm handshake but then the touch disappears like evaporating
water, I see pity on the faces of others, but I cannot see beyond their faces
so I do not care…Either nothing or everything makes sense, it’s either I’m
making excuses for the one who caused the pain and blaming myself or I’m
swearing and cursing or simply just hoping to die. Yet still, someone says to
me: You are a strong woman…one of the strongest I know….My secret? In
retrospect, I’ll say again, My Deposit!
Sometimes, we read the
Bible and pray and go to Church and we feel like it’s just a routine, or just
another habit. If only we understand we are building up a deposit. All
Christians need a deposit of God’s word, of good words, of good/upright times
so that when bad thoughts and bad times and bad words take the center stage and
we can’t get on our knees to pray or open our Bibles to read, what we had on
the inside of us, before the pain, can spring forth and sooth us. That’s how I
have survived…That’s how I have pulled through, that’s how I overcome. I don’t
know how it happens but I know it happens…I hear a Rhema from my Spirit or a
song jumps into my mind and I begin to sing in my heart and then I see in my
mind’s eye, the smile and the cheer of a loved one and then my lips begin to
move, I’m smiling…I’m singing …I’m strengthened… and then they say I’m strong…hmm….Lord,
I’m thankful for the grace.
And so, to you I’ll say:
Make hay while the sun shines, seek the Lord while He is near, subscribe to a viable
insurance policy, not just for your car or for your house but for your
soul…Fortify your walk with God, that’s the best deposit, it won’t guarantee
you a pain free life, but it sure would see you through the pain, it would keep
your account running even when you become dormant. You need a deposit, a
minimum balance that would keep you running when you can’t run. Invest in your Spirit-man
today!
Shalom!
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