Remember the guy I told you about the
other day? Yes! Good! You remember!
We’ve been friends for seven months now. And yeah! Like I said the other
time, I still feel the fire! I’m thrilled because He loves God and his desire
to get better spiritually is a huge turn on for me! And of course, need I say,
he is for all intent and purposes CUTE! Aside the Pinocchio ears and flat ass,
he’s just the perfect image of the kina guy you would think I can be attracted
to! elmmm, wait oh! He is light skinned
too sha! Yeah! The kind of light that turns red! Buh trust me; don’t think
he’ll have been this cute if dark. His height? Make a guess! How tall do u
think? Correct! About 6feet two inches! Jeez
Di! U need to see the soul lifting gap in his teeth. Oh Jeesus! He doesn’t open
his mouth enough to notice it often buh gosh! The eji takes my breath away! With
that alone, I think he’s absolutely beautiful on the outside! I think he has a beautiful inside too. When
love and fear of God drives you, you sure would have a pretty inside I believe…Moreover, from the first day I saw him,
a little bird told me something*Smile* you’ll pay me to tell you that part!
Nevertheless,
the shadow of his(and perhaps mine too) past won’t let us be! He’s been
battered and broken and so he is treading slowly…perhaps too slowly for me…yeah!
He’s got legitimate issues and yeah! In the ‘beginning’, I actually thought
he was a No! No! But right now, he’s my world and I’m hungry for an assurance
that I’m His too but No! He won’t assure me! And like all Christian brothers
that kick your ass in the end, he’s praying about it!
Like his past, he thinks I’ll walk away
when reality sets in or he’s still
watching and waiting to find the flaw that would make him release me! Or maybe,
he’s just got that sneaky little feeling that I’m not the one for him…who knows……perceive indecision, deception, ephemerality….yet, I’m giving love a chance again….
I can’t tell whether this relationship
is worth fighting for or worth hanging on to. Yet I’m in it still! Why you ask?
Because I’ve tried a plethora of times to stay out of it without success. So
Di! Right now, I have two options! To let it die a natural death or let it live
till death do us part…. I have kicked the ball out of my court; Let the wind blow it to the most appropriate
direction…
For now diary, let’s not talk about
this matter…we are just Seven months old by the way!
cheers!
